I just got home from being out all night, so my cogitative capacities are limited. Nonetheles, I shall enlighten you with an update on my oh so enthralling, yet surprinsingly mundane, life.1
I spent the night with the unattainable, which while frustrating, is also somewhat interesting. To be able to acknowledge that this is what I wish was attracted to me2, I suppose is somewhat of a “breakthrough” for me. I think tonight that either reality, or depression, has convinced me that she will never think of me that way, and as such, I should move on, which I have generally done. But in the back of my mind, I wish for the unattainable, and this has somewhat limited my current “prospects” as I hope for, and somewhat expect, the unattainable. So, to keep this (which has become extraordinarily personal) blog short, I shall say that while I continue to pine for, and hope for, her attention, I feel I should move on, which I shoudld say is somewhat of a challenge. I completely understand that as she searches for someone available, she finds someone else, and this means that she clearly does not expect that the answer is me, so I should and hopefully will understand this. Since I’m tired and don’t really know where this is going, I shall say to myself, Good Night and Good Luck4, and hope for the best with my future opportunities5.
Catch you on the flipside6.
1 Although I’m drunk, I actually thought about comma usage here, and I hope that it is correct.
2 Naturally, I’m forced to join the club of dude’s that wish that their “dream” girl was attracted to them3
3 God, I love footnotes within footnotes. I shall “dream” girl only because she is the best girl I’ve ever met. I have hope that Captain Upstairs will eventually help me out and introduce me to the attainable perfection, which has yet to happen. Fingers crossed!
4 Great movie.
5 But it won’t help. Boo hoo, let’s all have a good cry for P.A.B. Jimbo.
6 Man, I’m totally rambling, which makes this a very crappy blog. I’m sorry.
